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KISSimMEe, fla.

I love how cold it is...

: /

forreal, ive been walknig around in sweatshirts and pants.   Its depressing.

but, whatev, i can complain.

im loving it here...

i love mondays. :]

Kat: "You know what pisses me off?   I've been spilling my guts all weekend, and i dont know anything about you."
Nick: "I'm allergic to fabric softener, & I majored in comparitive literature at Brown.   I hate anchovies.   I'd probably miss you even if we'd never met."

Is it just me or is the entire world paired off ?   I mean, lets see.

Jackie & Chris
Allie & Jim
Natalie & Martin
Nicole & Jay
Dan & Courtney
Nikki & Mike
Lauren & Ray
Dawn & Dave or one of like, 10 other boys of the week.
Leah & Tim
Kristi & Tim
Michele & Matt
Mark & Cindy

I mean, half of these couples are from last year.   And, my last borfriend was last April.  Sure, I've done the random hookup thing once or twice since then, but it's starting to get old.   Summer has come and gone, and now its time for that fall romance.

Except, theres no one even on my radar.   And im definately not on anyone elses.   I mean, sure I like someone, but its yet another one of those hopeless situations where nothing will ever happen, because oh, wait, he hates me.

Granted, i have been known to take the route of, teenage romance doesnt exist.   you know, (excuse my language, but) fucking is only fucking when your just 16.   But, i just dont know.   I honestly have only ever loved one guy, and part of me thinks that maybe im still letting him get in the way of future relationships.   I mean, why else would i push away every person that "cares" about me ?

So now me and 2 of my best friends talk about her and a guy that i couldve had something with, and i am so so so so so happy for her, i truly am, and i think it is such a long time coming, but i cant help be jealous.   Its the same with my best friend in the entire world.   I was at her house Sunday night, and we were talking about her perfect boyfriend and their perfect love and how they are already planning on being together for the rest of their lives.   And theres this voice in my head that is just screaming with jealousy because I want that...

Then, i think about marriage, and i think about the way i run from the people that really do care about me, and im so scared that i'll never be able to commit to someone for life.   Scarier yet, what if i cant find someone who cares enough to tough it out and deal with my "quirky" personalitly.   And trust me, quirky is an understatement.

Anyway, now that ive chewed off your ear, i guess ill get back to whatever i was doing, not that it really matters.

But, thanks for listening.

<3

Trina

average of like, a 71 ??

on the test that is.

better than i expected.

:]

anyway, a crazy weekend is ending, but this week should prove to be wonderfully good, so thats okay.

physics is turning into my favorite class, since amex will probably be pretty fucked up after friday.

but, whatev...

=]

anyway, i have loads of homework and hair straightening to do.

peace, kids.

<3

another day, another physics test...

surprise surprise, i probably failed this one too.

but, i hope not.

like, i thoughti was doing really good, but when i went to turn it it, the paper that was there had completly different answers than mine, and since i didnt understand anything until i had this great epiphany today, i dont really trust my work.

but, you never know.

anyway its 10:41 and im sitting here bored as anything in AP Physics surrounded by terrified looking kids who are all stil working.   Theres only two other people done, and that kinda scares me too.  

oh well...

so, saturday was another  competition.   did i write about that yet ?

i dont think so.

we came in last but we still did really good.   i mean, our score when up 7 points from last week.   come on, how awesome is that ?   but the best part of the night had to be the fact that i got to be queer on the bus.   it was pretty much amazing.   haha, unless you were there, you just wouldnt understand...

by the way, guess what guys ?!

tomorrow is National Coming Out Day.   Isnt that fun ?   lol, dont even ask, i just found it amusing that it was on my wall calender.

in other news, i severly burnt my thumb very recently.   its kinda disgusting.   i mean, its all bubly and it hurts all the time.   isnt that just more fun than a barrel of monkeys ?!

haha, were going to disreguard how random and stupid that sentence was on the grounds that im tired and stressed and very very hungry.

so, ready, my music collection is growing.   new favorite bands you ask...?   let me give you a list...

-amber pacific
-cute is what we aim for
-lostprophets
-secondhand serenade
-the red jumpsuit apparatus
-30 seconds to mars
-death cab for cutie
-gym class heroes
-plain white t's
-the rocket summer
-saturday night at the apollo

if i had more time, id tell you what theyre like, but i dont.

i gotta run.

class is over.

wish me luck...